this (saturday) morning i walked to the salvation army on steinway and spent $8 on a pair of blankets- perfect, though i'm not a fan of dusty rose. wandered into a tienda and bought a few more pairs of black socks. i used to (years ago) not care about wearing sports heel socks with non sports shoes, but i feel like a goober in mybirkenstocks with anklets. so, mission accomplished.

then i proceeded to the local gym around the corner to sign up for the summer and was told my best option was a year membership and then to pay thecancellation fee when i left. at the end of the summer, i will have spent about a hundred a month. yes, that's 4 times what the Y charges and i could get a membership up at Columbia, but theni'll have to go up to 116th. i mean, i'm paying for convenience, and all the classes are drop in/free. it's big, it's clean. i should just suck it up and deal.

that stressor was paired with a great bike i found on craigslist, but is really more than i should pay. i'd likely strip this bike at the end of the summer and sell off what i didn't need, and could recoup a good part of the cost. i don't expect to be riding to work, but the experience of seeing a city by bike really can't be replicated by foot. so, stillbikeless.

today i saw probably the most honestly fucked up thing i will while i'm here. i can only hope. i'm leaving the gym and walking down 30th ave, which is a comfortably commercial street. there's a firetruck blocking on of the sidestreets and 3 firefighters looking around for something/one. turns out there's this two and a half year old kid in a stroller parked at a storefront with thecorrugated garage door down. kid's crying like crazy and no one's around to acknowledge him as theirs. so, as far as i can tell, the story is that the fdny gets called because this kid is abandoned. in the early evening on a busy commercial street. i hope i'm wrong.

red wings lost, pointedly because of a bad line change by chelios. they outplayed dallas, especially in the later part of the game, but without franzen, they couldn't get anything going. so, monday. at least i get another night of hockey out of the deal.

i made a really terrible meal for myself, even though it should have been tasty. turkey burger with goat cheese and avocado and broccoli turned into a patty of meat i didn't want to get through. i need to reevaluate my food situation and make some things happen. my food intake has been so sporadic, i need to come up with some way to eat happily. right nowi'm not.

i'm settling into a current spot of loneliness. i'm missing people that know me (even though i appreciate the emails and contact) and days with nothing to do. next weekend, i'm going up to philly to visit tom for the memorial day weekend and we'll run around and be merry. looking forward to it.

i might go into the city today and try to go to trader joes, even though it will be insane.